"That beep sound is continuously in our head, even when we are sleeping, that beep, beep, beep, beep, beep. That casualty noise, the ICU noise, that continuously goes in our head, in our ears every time, every day."
Rohan Aggarwal is 26 years old, he hasn’t even completed his medical training and yet at one of India’s best hospitals he is the one deciding who must live and who must die. India's healthcare system is teetering on the verge of collapse.
The WHO says India accounted for nearly half of the COVID-19 cases reported worldwide last week. At the Holy Family Hospital in New Delhi everyone knows there aren't enough beds, oxygen or ventilators to keep everyone who arrives alive.
So Aggarwal has to choose.
"What job we are assigned is, what is to be decided by God. Whom to be saved, whom not to be saved - and we are not made for that. We are just humans. And at this point of time we are being told to do this. So it's really a depressing atmosphere and I just want a break, an hour or so outside the hospital so that I can just recollect myself and just go out of that atmosphere because I have to be there for another 24, 28 hours."
The junior doctor takes a break outside - his shifts are 27-hours. He isn’t vaccinated and is afraid what will happen if he gets infected – it’s unlikely there’s a bed for him even at his own hospital.
"We are already using our resources to our best possibility and we are using everything we have at this moment. From the basic level to the top level, everybody is working day and night."
Back at the hospital conditions are cramped in the emergency room. Patients and relatives crowd every available space, many wearing no protection except for a simple cloth mask.
When Aggarwal began his shift around 9 a.m., there were four bodies in the area where staff remove their protective equipment.
One man was even laying in a storage area surrounded by bins of medical waste.
His relative is the one dragging in a new oxygen cylinder.
Aggarwal begins his shift making the rounds of the general COVID wards.
Along with a senior colleague he's responsible for 65 patients and only has a maximum of 3-4 minutes for each one.
He then heads to the emergency room where he has to decide who gets in and who doesn't.
If a patient doesn't need oxygen, then usually they are turned away.
For some patients they've already tried 15-20 hospitals.
74-year-old Karuna Vadhera, is in critical condition.
But there are no free ICU beds.
Aggarwal tells her nephew she might die at any time and they need to find a bed in another hospital.
Five family members are searching Delhi - no one has found a bed.